My Quest to Blog

Blogging is hard work, even for an amateur like myself. I couldn't imagine being a top blogger whose readers expect great content, topics, and pictures. I blog for myself because it gives me a place to lay it all out there. Divorce is hard and being a single parent is even harder. I would love to get back into the blogging game, if you are a blogger then you know what I am talking about. I don't even have a "real" blog layout. I haven't dedicated myself to this blog like I did Mrs. Mama. I think because before I was creating a family life and this time life is scrambling up my family. Honestly, it is more fun to write when your life is going good. When things are bad you don't want to share. Who wants to see my bedroom at my parent's house? There is no mantel. No kitchen of mine to organize. Decorating is limited. Just not much to show. Now that I'm 32 and living at home it is like my family is being pushed into another family. We don't make the rules, we are guests. Of course, since it is my family it doesn't feel like I'm merely a guest but a guest non the less.

All bloggers have to fit in time to blog. Some even need to schedule it in like an appointment. It's what you do when it is important to you. Although blogging is important to me, there are so many other things that keep getting in the way. You know, life. I hope to focus on blogging a little more in 2015. Although life is tough right now I want to one day look back and say "look what I made it through".

Faith in the Bracelet

Today while doing a little Christmas shopping I found a little something for myself. I'm not one who normally buys something for herself, and especially not so close to Christmas, but today I made an exception.

I was buying a few gifts and while I was waiting for my items to be wrapped I was looking at all the small items around the counter. I noticed a box labeled "Fortune Bracelet". From first glance you see modern colors and designs. I picked up one that stood out to me and started searching for why it was called a "Fortune Bracelet". My first thought was that it would change colors like a mood ring. I saw there was writing inside.

 

 

Sorry for the poor quality picture. I'm not "blogger" enough for real pictures.

 

It reads, "Your happiness is before you, not behind you".  Oh what a fortune for me! I really needed to see those words, and every part of me has to believe this fortune to be true. Not only does it cleanse me in hope for the future, but it also calms me knowing that the Lord gave this sign to me to keep me pushing forward and working towards a happier future.  A new year is starting to feel like something I could get excited about after all. Thank you $3 Fortune Bracelet for a whole new outlook! 

Party Time, Sickness, Knees, and Divorce

Wednesday we had our annual Ugly Christmas Sweater party at work. Honestly, my Christmas sweater isn't so ugly but if I'm gonna spend money on something then I want it to be something I can wear more than once. If you can't tell, I still haven't gotten my hair done. I seriously need a haircut.

 





Thursday the whole Ponder clan drove the 2 hours to Little Rock so my mom could have her knee replacement. Since my ex is living there now I decided to call him to let him know we would be in town if he wanted to come to the hospital and see Jack. When he showed up I didn't even recognize him. He had earrings in! All I could think is these last few months have been tearing me apart and he has gotten his ears pierced. He had on all new clothes and shoes and even a huge chain around his neck. I guess since he doesn't have a kid to raise he has time to focus on himself. He isn't giving me any child support but has the money to buy all that stuff for himself. I held my tongue to get through the visit but it did bother me. He has said he refuses to give me child support until it is court ordered. I think this says a lot about his character and enforces in me that I never really knew him.

 

I will say that he did get Jack some great Christmas presents. Jack enjoyed everything and for that I'm thankful. Jeremy went ahead and brought Jack's Christmas presents with him although he was suppose to bring them to him on the 23rd. I guess it just saves him a trip. I'm happy that I won't have to see him again until after Christmas.

 

 

Friday I woke up feeling quite sick. I was very nervous that I might have the flu. Although I was sick I knew I had to get to work at least for a little while. I had some loose ends to tie up before Christmas break and I needed to give some gifts and also pick up my paycheck. I stayed for about two hours. I then headed home and took a very long nap before I had to get to Jack's Christmas party at daycare. 



 





 



 These are not the best pictures but I was feeling so bad but I did want to snap a few. He makes the biggest messes when he is eating. Of course, he ate the cupcake first.

I wish you all a Merry Christmas! I'm very much looking forward to a new year.

 

 

Gals, Game Changers, and Garth (Day 1)

Want to see a heck of a lot of pictures? Keep reading and watching. Sadly, I think I took more pictures in those 3 days than I did the first 3 days after having Jack. When you get three besties together for a girl's weekend then you are bound to take lots of pictures.

 We were like 15 year old girls everywhere-taking selfies like we just heard of them. We had to, just know we made fun of ourselves for doing so. Hey us mommies rarely get out and when we do it is very rare for us to have a whole long weekend in another state.

Things kicked off when Amy and Brooke picked me up from school. I stood on the corner with my luggage in hand. They pulled up and I jumped in. Road trip time!

Our first stop was the liquor store. We each bought a different flavor of the beer/margaritas. The weather was awful. We were going up, down, and around mountains in rain and a heavy fog. Our plan was to stop and grab some food when we got closer to Brooke's Mom's house. Brooke's parents have a summer home halfway to St. Louis. We let the miles get the best of us and we ended up at the house before we got any supper. Thankfully there was some food in the house. We dined on canned baked potato soup, mac and cheese, popcorn, and cookies. What a meal! It sure was yummy to us at the time.

 

Getting the alcohol but no food

 

Preparing for our meal

 

A very random plate of food

 

After filling up I was ready for bed. We knew we had a long drive ahead and plenty of time to visit later so we went to bed fairly early. Night one was very calm and it would be the only night of this trip that we made it to bed at a decent hour. 

Let It Go....Let It Go

I'll be honest, I get a little "f it all" when things don't go as planned. Even though I did have those thoughts a couple times, I can't just "f it" when it comes to the holidays. Although Jack doesn't really get it just yet, I knew I would be sad if I didn't do those little things that make Christmas a holiday.

The first thing that shows up during the holiday season is the Christmas tree. For the first time my parents have no Christmas tree in the living room. This is what had happened. We knew we needed to wait for awhile because Jack would be obsessed with messing with it. So last Friday my dad brought out the tree for me to put together. It had been stored in a large tote with no lid inside the shed. Well I was snapping the pieces in when we noticed the lady bugs. More and more began flying around. Suddenly it was like a lady bug infestation. My dad panics and drags the whole tree through the house and chunks it into the yard. The lady bugs were everywhere. He said I could go to Wal-Mart tomorrow and buy a new one.

The next day he handed me $200 and said "bring back the change". Our small town does have a Wal-Mart (that closes at nine) and there isn't a lot of stock. Now granted there probably would have been more options if I weren't buying a tree 11 days before Christmas. My options were 1. a 3 foot prelit tree or 2. a 6 foot no lights tree. I threw the 6 foot tree in the buggy and bought some lights. I'm not much of a Christmas tree buying veteran but it shouldn't take a genius to figure out that when the tree costs $20 that it probably isn't that great of a tree and not the bargain you had hoped for. The tree was a hot mess. 6 foot? I'm not 6 feet tall and it was right there with me. Not only was it short but it was skinny and full of holes. My plan was to just make it work this year. Well Jack had other plans and would just knock the light tree straight over. He would even drag it across the floor and move it around which would unplug the lights and piss him off when it was pretty anymore. The sad little Charlie Brown tree has been moved to our bedroom so he can view it from his crib. It has no ornaments on it because Jack just pulls them off. I'm very sad that there is no big beautiful Christmas tree full of ornaments that we have pulled out year after year but I have to let it go.

 

Sweet Jack Jack after his bath enjoying touching all the lights.

 

Another tradition is building a gingerbread house. Since Jack and my nephew Bennett are obsessed with trains I thought a gingerbread train kit would be a better choice. I got everything all organized and then brought the boys in. Jack is still a little too young to really be helpful but Bennett is a great age for understanding and following directions. What was I thinking? Two boys, cookies, icing, and candy and not letting them put any of it in their mouths. Crazy idea! Here is what happened...

 

 

Yeah that was a no go but I will say the gingerbread tasted very good. Poor Bennett kept trying to decorate but he would have to take a bite or get a little taste of the candies. I finally, and literally, had to ask myself "What is more important, making a cute Instagram perfect gingerbread train or letting the boys enjoy themselves''? I had to let it go.

 

 

Have you had to "let it go" this holiday season? 



Santa Baby

This is year three of paying the astronomical price of $14 for one 5 x 7 of my sweet Jack Jack sitting on Santa's lap. These mall folks know how to work a Mama and pull those purse strings. I may be broke but by gosh we will get 30 seconds on Santa's knee and a picture with bad lighting. As you trip over how much this wee one has grown, please take a look at these poor Santa's. Let's just say the old saying rings true here, men really do look better with age. No wonder Jack is screaming in photo two. Poor baby was traumatized my ugly Santa as a baby.  

 

 

 

 

 

Call me a bad mom, but I love the second picture with him crying. It is just so precious! There was a couple there today with a baby around Jack's age in picture two. They were trying their best to get him to warm up to Santa and not cry. That baby was not having it. They really wanted that smiling happy picture but it wasn't happening. They will realize that the crying picture will one day become a fond memory.

 

Jack loved Santa! I'm talking he acted like they were old buddies. He was giving Santa high-fives and getting up and down from his lap. All of the faux Wonderland objects were calling his name. He could have spent a lot longer there if I would have let him but Jack has a tendency to destroy things. The $14 picture broke the bank so we rolled on out. Yes, we literally rolled out because my Mom was with me and I had to push her in a wheelchair. On Thursday she will get to have her knee replacement. We are all very excited for her to finally get this done. Her birthday is the day after surgery so it isn't a great birthday but it is a new beginning for her.

 

I am very excited that the trip to see Santa went so well. Life has been so chaotic that I was worried I wouldn't be able to fit a Santa trip in (living in such a small town we have to travel 45 minutes to find a Santa). It took some serious planning and a little rearranging but it got done and I couldn't be happier with how it turned out.

 

Do you take your child to see Santa each year?

 

Week Four Goals

Last week was Thanksgiving week and I took the week off from the world. We were out of school so I took that time to just get ready for the big Thanksgiving meal and all the company.

This week is Book Fair week at our school. Book Fair time is always super crazy and it wears me out. I'm thankful for the money we make but it doesn't make me any less tired at the end of the day. Basically, it's a rough week that I do for the greater good.

I have a fun weekend planned that is getting me through this hectic week.

Here are my 5 goals for this week:
1. Get the tree up.
2. Get my hair done.
3. December newsletter out for work.
4. December birthdays posted for work.
5. Go shopping for me a few new pieces of clothes.

Isn't it sad when I have to write shopping for myself down as a goal? It is going to be such a busy week that fitting it in will be difficult. Staying organized and being focused will be the only things that get me through this week with all my sanity.

You turn your head for one second and he is dancing on the kitchen table!

Toddler Toys {Gift Guide}

It's that time again. That's right. What in the world can I buy my child that he is going to love? Although we left most of Jack's toys at our old house, he still has way too much. Seriously, how do kids accumulate so much stuff? Amazon is my go-to place for online shopping. Can I get a woohoo for Amazon Prime?

Here are a few things I'm contemplating for Jack. Have you bought any of these and what did you think of them?

l. Learning Resources Pretend & Play Fishing Set
$18.77

Melissa & Doug K's Kids Pull-Back Vehicle Set
$28.75
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Fishe-Price Wheelies Loops 'n Swoops Amusement Park
$44.99

First 100 Words
 $4.14

Diggin HopTop Trampoline
$79.95

Happy Trains Plush Rocking Horse
$67.49

Will I Survive the Terrible Twos?

Jack has been two for a whole two weeks and the terrible twos have hit this house. My dear son has always been on the difficult side, but now that he has hit two he has upped it to a whole new level. I would say that 85% of my time at home is spent keeping Jack from hurting himself or trying to stop him from destroying everything in his path.

I'm not exaggerating.I have references. The daycare workers where Jack goes are always asking me "how do you not just fall out?". I'm not sure how to answer, because some days it feels like I really could just fall out.

Teachers will understand when I say that the last thing I want to do when I get home is discipline a child. I'm always so worn out by the time I get off work that I just want to enjoy my baby. I'm not just physically worn out, but mainly mentally done from the exhaustion of dealing with other peoples kids all day. Don't get me wrong, I love my job and my kiddos but kids are kids and will wear you down. Coming home to a terrible two toddler just adds to my stress.

Here are some of his favorites:

• Climbing on top of the recliner. As much as I watch his every move he still manages to get up there. I'm afraid that one day he will fall off the back of the recliner. 
• If he isn't sitting on the back of the reclinter then he is jumping in it with it rocking swiftly.
• Climbing is his favorite right now so he really enjoys getting in the computer chair and climbing on top of the computer desk where he feels like he has hit the jackpotl The computer desk is pretty much the drop zone for everything.
• Pooping in the floor
• Taking off his clothes
• Peeing in the floor
• Throwing himself on the floor when he gets mad
• Slapping me when he gets mad
• Telling me no
• Throwing toys
• Filling his mouth full of his drink and spitting it out
• Unplugging everything
•  Biting me and others
• Screaming bloody murder just because I won't let him spill out a bag of chips all over the floor
• Jumping up and down in the tub

There is just some of his current highlights. He is such a handful. Something about him being so feisty makes me love him a little twinge more. He's got real spirit. I hope he always stays strong-willed but I really hope that his goals change and his strong spirit will be pointed to a more productive path. Driving me crazy, trying to break his arm, making messes, and getting toys is not what I want him using his strengthes for. 

Trials of Single Parenting

1. Making decisions. Since you soley make the decisions then if things go work out it's on you. For example, Jack loves his bottle. He only gets one a day, at night. Since he recently turned 2 I truly debated about taking it away for good. Then I thought he will probably be my only baby, and it's just one a day, and he is already going through so much transition. So I'm letting it stay-for now. If this is a huge mistake then it lands on me. I can't place blame on anyone else.

2. Going to events. Jack goes to an amazing daycare. It is Christian based and they do a lot of family oriented activities. The problem comes when I just can't take off work for everything. I want him to have me each time parents are invited but I'd never make any money. This Thursday the daycare is having a Family Feast where family members can come eat lunch with their child. My Mom is going but I wish it were me.

3. Sharing the good. It was practically an everyday event me calling or texting my husband the newest cute thing Jack was doing. We got to share in that excitement. It was even better when we both got to experience it together. Only a parent will get THAT excited that their child finally ate a vegetable.

4. Picking things out. With the holiday season approaching way too quickly I'm doing my best to pick out just the right gifts. It has been enjoying in these past 2 years working together to play Santa. Not only will I miss getting to decorate my own home, but I'll also miss playing Santa with someone.

Beyond these there are so many little ways that being a single parent is difficult. I could talk about being lonely and the financial burden like most other single parents. It's not easy, but being a parent whether single or not, isn't easy.

Week Two Goal Recap and Week Three Goals

1. Bring my lunch to work everyday this week.
Overall I didn't do too bad on this one. It wasn't every single day but there was more of an effort.

 2. Get EVERYTHING ready for Math/Literacy night by Friday.
Big fat negative. We had some illness that caused everything to get behind. I really wish I would have accomplished this goal because now today is super stressful getting it all ready.

 3. Finish Thanksgiving planning by Friday. During the weekend send out information.
I did finish the planning but didn't send out all information. I did to some but not all.

 4. Lay out Jack's clothes the night before school.
Although I did this way more than I usually do, I didn't do it each night before school. I recognize that the nights that I did lay his clothes out that things were much easier that next morning.

 5. Make sure the kitchen is clean before I go to bed.
Most nights I accomplished this which made me feel good.

I see the pattern of not accomplishing it all. It bothers me that I didn't get it all done. It would have been nice to say "Yes, I did this every night and it felt great". I guess I have the chance again this week.

Week 3 Goals:
1. Make a budget.

2. Pick out a hair cut/dye that I want. My plan is to get my hair done next week.

3. Work on not snacking (especially at night).

4. Drink more water. Isn't that on everyone's list?

5. Do a Thanksgiving activity with my nephew Bennett and my son Jack. I would like to do something that I can display for Thanksgiving supper.

On His Birthday

Today is my husband's birthday. That's weird. He is my husband and we aren't together. Reminds me of the Friends episode where Ross is losing it and saying I don't know where my wife is. I feel him now. I don't know where my husband is.

Days leading up to his birthday I kept feeling like I was forgetting something. I'd remember, "oh I need to get J a birthday present". Then I would have to remind myself that I didn't. His girlfriend will be agonizing over what to get him this year. A part of me is relieved because he was always so hard to shop for but mainly it is just sad.

I'm not sure if I was suppose to get him something from Jack. Is that the right thing to do? I know it would be the nice thing to do but since he isn't being so nice then maybe I shouldn't be either. Then I wonder if I'm just being petty. Do I send him a card? Do I even send a happy birthday text? Do I just try and stay busy that day to keep my mind off of it all?

The idea of him celebrating when he has turned our lives upside down makes my skin crawl a little. She is going to make him a cake. She is going to wrap his presents. She is going to wish him a happy birthday first. I'm his wife.

On his 35th birthday he will be a married man living with his girlfriend. On his 35th birthday I'll be a married woman living with her parents. On his 35th birthday my son Jack will be 2 with married parents.

Weekend in Review: Middle of the Week Style

Jack is all about climbing. One quick minute I go to the bathroom and come back to this. He got that Dr. Pepper. Determination in a toddler isn't so great for Mama.

My Dad killed this huge deer on Saturday. The little boys loved looking at it and saying "deer". I'm not such a huge fan of the deer hunting thing but for Jack's sake I let him look. More than likely he'll be a deer hunting enthusiast one day.

A part of me feels it's time for a haircut but the Mama in me just loves these curls. Jack is showing off his new boots that Nana got him for his birthday. He is also getting in trouble in this picture for throwing rocks. Why do boys love throwing rocks?

Other than what you see, I spent my weekend organizing my bedroom. I've had to go from living in a 3 bedroom house into one room. It's not easy but I've been making the best out of the space I have. Plastic totes are my friend. 

Big Boy Shirts

Who doesn't love Children's Place? Recently I purchased several new items for a now 2 year old. I wanted to go with a bigger boy look and get away from the onesies and one piece outfits. I also had to force myself to step away from the matchy stuff (you know, the sets that only go together). Here are some new shirts that are now hanging in the closet.

 

Simple cute tee for only $5

 

 

I love this football long sleeve thermal for only $7

 

 

You can never go wrong with a striped polo and $10

 

 

 

My sister and I both purchased this Oxford shirt for $10

 

 

I could not resist this beautiful green plaid shirt for $14

 

 

 

 

 

 

My Christmas Wish

1. A vacation with unlimited mixed drinks, a beautiful scenery, and quiet.

2. A weekend to watch as much tv as I want and take as many naps as I want.

3. Thousand dollars to shop for just myself.

4. A spa weekend with my mom and sister.

5. A pile of books and unlimited Starbucks.

In reality I would take:

1. A margarita and a good Mexican meal.

2. To be able to watch How to Get Away With Murder and it not be interrupted.

3. To be able to buy some new winter boots.

4. To get my hair dyed and cut.

5. To read a magazine and drink a McDonald's White Chocolate Mocha.

Week 2 Goals and Week 1 Recap

Week One Goals
1. Turn off utilities to old house after cleaning it. 
We never made it back to the old house so nothing there got done.

 2. Order cupcakes for Jack's class.
Complete! The party was a success!

 3. Complete papers from lawyer.
Big fat negative!

 4. Walk 3 days.
Nope! I'm going to have to figure out something else. By the time I get home it is getting dark. I haven't seen Jack all day so I don't want to leave him to go workout. I'm not sure how to fix this issue so I can workout but I need to do something.

 5. Start a new book. I miss reading.
I did start a new book but I don't really like it so I think I need to throw it out and just start a new one.

Week Two Goals
1. Bring my lunch to work everyday this week.

2. Get EVERYTHING ready for Math/Literacy night by Friday.

3. Finish Thanksgiving planning by Friday. During the weekend send out information.

4. Lay out Jack's clothes the night before school.

5. Make sure the kitchen is clean before I go to bed.

Maybe I'm Cold Hearted?

I've always been one who could departmentalize. My Mom says this trait came from the Ponder side of the family. When Jeremy said he was moving out I got angry-not sad. I didn't beg him to stay or cry for him to keep us together as a family. In my mind I just thought "okay, he doesn't want us so what do I do now". I immediately starting trying to figure out the next step and making to do lists. It is who I am. Did I get sad? Yes. Do I still get sad? Yes. Do I stay sad? No. I feel that someone else's choices can not control our situation. Why beg someone to stay who wants to go? Maybe I didn't feel like it was worth fighting for? Maybe I was too tired of fighting for something he clearly didn't want.

It bothered him that I didn't cry, beg, or plea with him. Perhaps it's my pride.

There are many times when I get very sad. I can't look at pictures of happier times for too long or listen to certain songs on the radio. It becomes too much and my brain starts thinking and my heart starts feeling. I have to remind myself that looking back isn't helping us move forward. 

When things in my life get tough I've always been one to try and figure out a way to fix things and dig ourselves out of the mess. Of course, it was better when it was the two of us working together to make things better. Now that he is gone and Jack is my whole world I have even more of a fight in me. I don't want any of this to effect him in any way. If I'm down and upset that isn't going to make him feel like his best self. I have to put him first and not get myself down about the love that I lost or the betrayal that I feel.

Honestly, I don't feel like I am a cold-hearted person. To some people I'm sure they probably look at me and think why isn't she more upset. To those people I say "I just can't be right now. I have to make the best life possible for Jack and myself. That means that for now I have to put my big girl panties on and tackle things I've never wanted to do. For now, I need to survive. There are to do lists to work on and a life beyond divorce to make. I'll be sad another day, when I have more time".

Jack is 2 in Pictures

 

This cutie in glasses had me laughing during Jack's birthday party at daycare.

 

Bennett came to Jack's room to celebrate with us.

 

They were in such a sweet mood. Giving birthday hugs is too cute.

 

Look at Jack's amazing cake! The lady who made it is wonderful. Not only is it a-dor-a-ble but it tastes so yummy! She is the lady we always use when we need a cake.

 

 

It was so hard getting Jack to be still for a picture. This is one of like twenty that it took to actually get a decent picture.

 

Yesterday was a lot of fun but it came with some divorce drama (ugh!). I love my baby Jack and he had an amazing day. 

I've Been a Mama for 2 Years!

This is the picture taken when I held Jack for the first time. It was a Friday, yet he was born on a Wednesday. I cried so hard that the nurse was nervous about handing him over to me. I couldn't wait any longer to hold him. I truly felt like a Mama. 

Oh this picture of Jack in his take home outfit makes me wish I could love on that sweet baby again. I remember just how he smelled and his little piglet sounds. He was so squishy and sweet and I would pay money to go back in time for 5 minutes to relive that moment. 

This second picture was taken exactly a year ago. A little one year old with a face full of cake. I had no idea that a year later I'd be going through a divorce and that the 3 of us wouldn't be spending his birthday as a family of 3. 

We are keeping it simple. A yummy Mickey Mouse cake from our beloved cake maker Ms. Brenda who seriously makes the best cakes in the world. We are going to eat his favorite meal-pizza. Lastly, we'll open presents. I'm also taking cupcakes to his daycare. It seriously blows my mind that he is two. I love him with every bit of myself. Although I miss my little baby I enjoy watching him grow and learn. I know this next year will be just as exciting, if not more. 

Choose Your Own Adventure: November

When I saw this link-up I knew I wanted to participate. I love setting goals and I really love that the theme is chosen for you. November's theme is ORGANIZE. Being in my current situation really calls for me to get organized and this just might be the push that I need. 

I am choosing to organize these 3 areas:

1. Jack's clothes. Big hunking mess! His too small, just right, and too big are all mixed together in totes, boxes, on the bed, in the laundry room, in grocery sacks, at our old house....you get the idea. 

2. My Christmas shopping list. Pieces of scratch paper aren't going to cut it this year. Finances are tight and I need to be smart. I need to make a plan and a budget. 

3. Finances. They are a mess! It's time to get it together. I've been dreading this for awhile. When your income suddenly gets cut in half in kinda brings you down. It's time for me to get over it. 

I hope to look back at the end of this month and really see a difference. I'll be sure to keep you in the know. 

Sleepless Nights

Jack is not the best sleeper. My Mom is always there to remind me that I wasn't the best sleeper either. She says that is the reason there is 7 years between me and my younger sister.

Last night was one of the worst nights in awhile. Jack woke up at 2:30 am and didn't go back to bed. We watched Lilo and Stitch back to back and one episdoe of SVU. When my alarm went off at 6:10 I just chuckled. It was the first time in a long time that I had even set it because my Dad always wakes us up around 6:30 but I wanted to try and get an earlier start. I did not want a 2:30 am early start.

Several times I had to remind myself how blessed I was to have a son to keep me awake. I had to repeat this to myself many times.

Work has been so busy. I am in the midst of getting ready for Math/Literacy Night, bookfair, AND we are in the middle of our fall fundraiser. As librarian, parent coordinator, and PTO treasurer I am involved in all three. Add getting a divorce, Jack's birthday tomorrow, and having to move all my stuff out of our old house and this chick is stressed out.

Thank you baby Jesus for white chocolate mochas that jolt me into gear and to the Dr. Peppers that keep that motor running.

Toddler Thanksgiving Activities

I do my best to stay active with my son Jack and my newphew Bennett. I love doing arts and crafts with them and learning activities. Here are some cute ideas I found on Pinterest. Feel free to follow my Active Mama board on pinterest my clicking here.

I'm loving this corkscrew fall tree!

Super cute and easy!

Q-tip Painting sounds a little more manageble with a toddler. 

I'm in love with these printable preschool packs. They are too hard for Jack (age 2) but most are a great fit for Bennett (age 3 and a half). 

I love making these little crafts with little ones. They make for great memories. Nothing like a toddler and paint.

Week 1 Goals

1. Turn off utilities to old house after cleaning it. 

2. Order cupcakes for Jack's class.

3. Complete papers from lawyer.

4. Walk 3 days.

5. Start a new book. I miss reading.

10 of Me

1. I'm actually still in the process of getting a divorce.

2. My son Jack and I are living with my parents. 

3. I'm an elementary librarian at a K-5 school in Arkansas.

4. I have a nephew named Bennett that you will probably think is my son because I will talk about him a lot. 

5. Once upon a time I was a tv junkie, but now that I have a toddler running all over the place I only watch a few things. Right now I'm loving How To Get Away With Murder.

6. Jack is turning 2 on Friday and is a very wild little toddler. 

7. Jack was flown 2 hours away via helicopter at birth and was placed in the NICU for a few days. I had complications and have had 2 surgeries to try and correct my botched c-section.

8. The ideas of what I want to do are endless, yet sometimes it's hard for me to get off the couch. 

9. I'm a Dr. Pepper addict and I want to stop but my goodness that stuff is good!

10. My immediate family and I are very close. They are my everything. Being a Ponder again just might not be so bad.